
NICU November 2002 Noah turns 7 years old July 11, 2009
I
know how you feel because as a parent I have been there too. Our story
begins like most of yours – in the NICU. We went through what many of
you are going through right now, or have recently experienced. When
our son, Noah, was born at 24 weeks gestation he weighed 1.9lbs and was
12 inches long. Like you, we were scared to death. We were frustrated
with all the technical terms that the NICU staff used and we were
always on the edge of our seat wondering what next.
Noah suffered from a PDA (hole in his heart), a grade III IVH (brain
bleed), and NEC (Necrotizing Enterocolitis). The NEC was surgically
repaired, but Noah needed a colostomy bag for four months. He suffered
from the typical preemie feeding issues and like most preemies, he was
on and off the ventilator for 87 days, he had blood transfusions and
high blood pressure issues. After 6 months, Noah came home from the
hospital only to go back to the Pediatric ICU (PICU) for more surgery.
It was just like they say – “a roller coaster ride.” It was the most
difficult time in my life. Each time a new crisis arose from Noah’s
prematurity, the doctors would of course explain the outcomes and the
percentages of “normal” we could expect. We were told that Noah’s
outcome would be grim. We learned early on to ask questions and be
persistent.
We began to ask about Noah’s eyes and Retinopathy of Prematurity (ROP)
very early on because, to be quite honest, this was what I feared the
most. A few weeks after I asked about when they were going to check
Noah’s eyes, they did and determined Noah was at Stage I in his right
eye. They followed Noah closely for weeks and his eyes gradually began
to worsen. I spoke with the doctors and they assured me that Noah was
fine and most preemies have Stage I ROP. We felt better. The next week
the Ophthalmologist came by again and found that Noah’s right eye was
at Stage III and his left eye was beginning to show some Stage I
growth. They performed surgery the following day and felt confident of
a positive outcome. However, Noah’s right eye continued to worsen and
laser surgery was performed again. This time the surgeons stayed with
him longer and were more aggressive with the laser treatment in the
right eye. The doctors felt the surgery went better this time. They
continued to follow Noah up until his discharge from the hospital.
Noah was discharged in December 2002. We were given a discharge summary
that stated, “Retinopathy of Prematurity ONSET: 10/15/2002 and
RESOLVED: 11/19/2002 Evaluated by Ophthalamologist who feels he will
not need further surgery.”
We
went home only to have Noah develop Apnea choking episodes. He was
admitted to the PICU and underwent surgery which resulted in a month
long stay in the hospital. Noah was near death a few times and I felt
like I was dangling at the end of my rope. I forgot to call for the
two week follow-up eye appointment and no one reminded me. About four
weeks after Noah’s December discharge the ophthalmologist found us at
the PICU.
I will never forget that January night in
the PICU as long as I live. I was alone with Noah when the
Ophthalmologist examined him and told me that Noah was blind in his
right eye and that there was little hope for his left eye. I will
never forget feeling like someone had taken a baseball bat and hit me
in the stomach. At that moment I hated that doctor and could find
nothing to say to him. I picked-up Noah and held him close, crying not
only for our son but for the never ending nightmare that was happening
in our lives, for the loss and grief that I had yet to really feel. I
called my husband, Jake, who was there in minutes. We placed calls to
our family and friends, and prayers went out across the country.
A new journey began that night. The next morning I was on the phone
with the Ophthalmologist asking him what we could do. He said there
was nothing “to do”. “There must be something,” I said. “Some Eye
Institute, something.” The doctor responded, “Let me make a few
calls.” That afternoon he put us in touch with a Retina Specialist at
our local Eye Institute who was working with other victims of ROP. It
took some phone calls and a lot of insurance shuffling, but we were
able to get an appointment for Noah within a week and were scheduling
surgery for the following day.
The Retina Specialist performed a Vitrectomy, Lensectomy and membrane
peeling on Noah, along with additional laser surgery on his left eye.
We didn’t expect much out of the right eye, but even some light
perception would be helpful. We have never forgotten this surgeon.
She gave us hope when there had been so much despair.
Noah is now five years old. He still has special needs in some areas,
but he progresses each year. He’s an amazing little boy who we love
dearly. Noah never regained vision in his right eye and also
contracted Neovascular Glaucoma in that eye. His left eye is doing
better than expected with vision of 20/100. Noah is very mobile and
gets around easily.
Jake and I have often thought about our struggles with Noah’s early
birth, but most of all we are proud to be Noah’s parents. We have come
to accept Noah for who he truly is, a beautiful little boy who has a
zest for life. It has never been an easy ride, but it has been a
learning experience.
We started this foundation because we never want any parent to feel
like we did that January night. We wanted parents who are struggling
with ROP to have access to a website dedicated to helpful information
and resources. We hope that this website will meet that goal, and if
not, that you will contact us so that we can work with you. Most
importantly, we want you to know that you are not alone with your fears
and your questions.
Thank you for being a part of our lives.
Candi and Jacob Sturgeon
September 2007